WHAT is my deal?

Seriously- what is my problem? I am no where near where my excitement level should be right now. Am I broken? I have not been myself lately. I leave for England FRIDAY! only THREE full days left. I should be jumping for joy, bouncing off the walls, shouting HORRAY at the top of my lungs while doing toe touches and backflips on my way from the living room to the kitchen. So why after all these months of anticipation am I am suddenly filled with anxiety?

Everyone I have talked to recently plays like a broken record. 

"Taylor- you are going to have so much fun!" 

"Taylor this is the chance of a lifetime" 

"You will remember this forever"

While I find these words comforting and true my emotions are everywhere I don't even know what to think or feel.

It's the goodbyes....

Leaving work and work friends of 2 years 

Leaving college station my home away from home that I surprisingly grew to love of 4 years

(that includes football season & delta gamma)

Leaving my roommates and friends

Leaving mexican food

Leaving my extended family

My brother/best friend leaving for Florida

Natalie leaving to go back to school

Elise leaving to go to grad school

Pham leaving to work in NY

Leaving sam. period.

Leaving my parents. 

Leaving the only life I know for a life I cant even begin to predict or imagine..

This is too much sadness for one month. 

Thank goodness Laura is coming with me- the only tangible string that connects the past with the future.

Sometimes I am too sentimental. I need to skip over this mushyness and get over it. I am going to England for pete-sakes. 

Some things I am praying for. Your prayers are welcome as well.

1. A safe arrival for me, Laura, Colette and Laurel. 

2. My students that I have not yet met. Pray that I am able to influence, teach and affect their lives the way God intends me too and that they do the same.

3. For my mentors at St. Annes School. 

4. That I pursue God's plan for me whatever it may be and whether I like it or not!

Thanks- they are much appreciated :)